Nothing at all happened today.

But I love this song:

I Miss You

By Incubus.

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

 SO this morning I had to go to church with Ross' family. It wasnt so bad...even though I hate church. I saw more droopy old faces and fucked up teeth than I've ever seen in my liifffe. The senior pastor was the cutest old lady ever. People picked on me because my hair is purple.

 After that I went malling. It was pretty much boring. But it wasnt home...so it was okay. I just bought pants. AND FOOD! The first time I'd really eaten in 2 days. It was chinese for the CHINESE NEW YEAR! I hung out in the arcade talking to Ryan who's pretty cool. He translated my fortune to "You'll be a prostitute." It did pretty much say that...

Thats basically it.

~Raccoon

Happy seziure.

Just got off the phone with Nick <3

Finally talked to him about stuff. Things went over okay and we pretty much had the best conversation we had in like the last 2 months...2 months which TOTALLY sucked. My hormones are hyped and ready for tuesday.

Last night I couldn't sleep. I thought I was losing him...and I was crying for forever. Tonight I'm euphoric. I feel better. muchmuch better.

I didn't realize how much I missed him until last night. I was hugging my pillow and it wasnt helping. Aw <3 Love.

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I've been so depressed about this for weeks. This is the best night I've had in too long. Hush! So what if I'm a love struck teenager?! xD

I'm excited. Can't wait to see him again. It feels new and exciting...just because I was without.

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-Raccoon

Well then...this is pretty much set up I gues...soo anyways.

Allow me to introduce myself.

Names Jakii. I'm 17 years old. Junior in highschool.

Brief-

Nick= boyfriend. We've been dating almost a year. Roughrough year. We might be on the rocks. I don't know. I love him...but things are WAY messed up.

Parents- just divorced actually. Much better this way. Live mostly with my dad. Both are dating other people. Their relationship was nothing but abuse and cheating. (technically he's my step dad but we wont get into that!)

Justin and Ross- Brothers. Well Justin= 1/2 brother. Ross not my brother actually but he basically lives here. Justins Best friend.

Chrissy and Cassie- My best friends in the whole wide world. Also the hottest lesbian couple ever. Unfortunatly they live in PA and I do not. I moved to VA almost 3 years ago.

Britt, Anne, Tiff, Melissa, Aaron, Will, KT- Random PA friends whom I <3 mucho.

Jeanna, Amber, Ryan, Todd, Matty, Brandon, Dalton- Random VA friends. Each have seperate stories Im sure you arent interested. If it's important I'll explain it on the way xD Yes. This is a mission.

Thats all the people you need to know (this feels like a book synopsis)

Uhm. Random stuff: I want to do something along the lines of an Honors English/ creative writing teacher for highschool. I can sing. I want to learn how to play the violin and classical piano. I am a DDR freak. I'm usually very cheery in person, not so much in writing. (Sorry, you get the bad end!!) I love music. I can't choose one type. The best I've come across is what you're listening to. Emilie Autumn. She mixes all of the elements I love. I swear like a maniac. If that offends you...sorry. I am open for love. Im not straight or gay. I love who I love. I guess if you want to be general, Im bi. I am tenacious for promiscuous things. i.e. I <3 me sex0rz. Im out spoken. Especially since you're in MY blog. Dont like it, dont read it. Don't bitch about it.

Thats about all...

As for my life currently:

I havent left my house in 5 days. Not even to step outside and I have had no social interaction with anyone but my brothers. Pathetic. I'm bored out of my mind. Stir crazy me= not good.

Nick and I are still so...I dont know. I feel like he is leaving me...he swears he isnt. I dont feel him anymore. I tried talking to him about it...yeah. Didnt work. Ill try again tonight. I know he is busy...but Ill make him listen! >.<

Tomorrow...the mall! yay! But I have to wake up early. I probably wont sleep. Just take a nap or something. I have to go to church first...thats my only way to the mall (Ross' real mom is taking us) argh. fuck that.

XxSyntheticxX

Test one two three...

Anything but...that?